Seven months ago my life completely changed. I’ve been almost completely absent from social media since then. Some people thought I was pregnant… but the truth is my life was being dismantled and rebuilt at the same time. Over the last year Jesus met me in a way I couldn’t ignore. It disrupted everything the life I had built, the direction I was going, even the way I saw myself. I walked away from OnlyFans and with it the money, the security, the brand deals, the image, and even some relationships that couldn’t follow me into this new chapter. Letting go of all of that was terrifying. What I didn’t realize until I stepped away was how much of my identity had become tied to attention. When the numbers were high, I felt validated. When they weren’t, it could ruin my entire day. Living like that long enough makes you believe your worth is something strangers get to decide. Walking away meant breaking that cycle. It meant learning who I was without the applause. In December I finally decided to get baptized. After that I chose to continue to stay quiet for a while because I needed time for God to renew my mind and rebuild parts of my life that had been shaped by years of chasing validation. And slowly, what felt like losing everything started to look different. I was able to find peace in all of the loss God began bringing new things into my life real peace, genuine friendships, new dreams, and a vision for my life that’s bigger than anything I was chasing before. I’m still figuring out what this new version of my life looks like. After more than 6 years online, even deciding what kind of content I want to create now feels like starting over. I also don’t know how I would have made it through this season without Jay. His patience, support, and love while I was trying to figure all of this out meant more to me than I can explain. I’m sharing this because I know there are girls who feel that same quiet tension in their heart the part of you that knows you were made for more, but the fear of losing everything keeps you where you are. If that’s you, I want you to know this: your worth was never meant to be measured by other people’s approval. God didn’t just take things away from me. He gave me a new direction, a new purpose, and ambitions that are bigger than anything I was chasing before. And when the time is right, I can’t wait to share that with you. 🤍
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